Are you remembering well?

By: Jess Hines

While the disciples were eating with Jesus, He took bread, broke it and tells them “do this in remembrance of me,” but what exactly are we doing? Are we remembering well?

I’m trying to remain present and live with mystery. Since being here in Africa I’ve been overwhelming myself with questions. Not only am I setting out each day in the refugee camp, chasing stories, asking questions, interviewing potential characters for our documentary, but I’m spending time alone on our off days with the Lord, asking him question after question regarding my own personal life. 

Living in the mystery. 

With mystery comes questions. With questions come revelation.

Revelation is locked up in this realm called mystery. Mysteries of God cannot be hunted, they cannot be discovered by persistent searching. It must be revealed to those who hunger for them. 

Mystery has become a continual part of my life, because I’ve learned that I cannot afford to live only in what I understand. To be blunt, that’s boring and not at all a life I desire. 

I’ve never been more passionate about something in my life. I’m completely in my element here in Uganda, within this refugee camp, telling stories, hearing stories, and creating a story for all of you to connect with. 

Here in the camp, I’m tapping into the revelation of the Lord in the area of my gifting and talents so I can accurately and profoundly reflect the King and His Kingdom. 

In my personal life, I always have more questions than I have answers. My encounters with the Father always leave me with profound revelation, but following by more deep and yearning kinds of questions. 

Revelation must be revealed to those who hunger for them. I’m starving. 

What’s rocking me right now, “a relationship with God that does not stir up that realm of mystery and wonder is an inferior relationship.”

There is nothing more rich, nothing more satisfying then being completely consumed by the mystery and wonder of our Father. 

I asked you earlier if you’re remembering well. Remembering the past helps to prepare for the work of God in the future. We have to remember but we don’t have to dwell, wish away or focus in on the disappointments. Jesus is in the business of healing. What he won’t do is change what happened in the past, but He will change the outcome. 

Our disappointments are our testimonies. If you’re like me, and you get caught up in the what if’s, should haves or could haves, take a step back, ask Father a question or a hundred and let him remind you of the past. Remember His faithfulness, His constance, and ask Him to show you specifically where He was in each disappointment.

Don’t let yourself stop there. Be okay with sitting in the unknown. Soaking in the mystery and wonder of our Father. Expose yourself to the impossibilities that come with questions that may never be answered.

After all, that’s why we call it faith. 

A School Called Hope